Herstory: Weaving Our Yarns

We sometimes think that doulaing is mainly about stories. We have to process our own life stories and learn to keep the tales of what happened to us filed away safely so they don’t spill out all over our clients.

We have to listen to our clients’ stories, and help them make sense of the threads of their narrative. It’s sometimes like helping sort a jumbled ball of wool. It is no coincidence that the word ‘yarn’ means thread and story. We have to knit our stories together to make something useful and beautiful.

A doula often brings in threads from other stories – we have a plethora at our disposal – to help make sense of this client’s experience, or share a learning or useful tip. We learn to share this wisdom without breaking confidentiality.

So how do we create the right environment to allow the stories to unfold? Here Maddie talks about 5 ways she listens.

1. Make the space and hold it

To enable someone to let go and talk, they need space. Space might mean enough time, enough opportunity, distractions kept to a minimum or to be in the right place emotionally. We need to trust and to feel confident that we will not be judged in order to feel safe to share. We also need our listener to hold this space with the respect it deserves and to honour the sharing in the space you have created.

For some of us, the ingredients need to be just right in order to let go, let it out, let our thoughts, feelings and experiences range free. Keeping it all zipped up can feel like control, and control can become a habit. So showing you are making space, and that you approve of her and whatever she has to say is vital. I try to do this with my body language, my focus on just her and her alone and by helping to make her comfortable. We English doulas often do this by offering and sharing cups of tea – tea and intimate talk, sharing of feelings and working on solutions are intimately intertwined in our culture.

Sometimes touch – hugs, a hand on a shoulder or holding a hand – can be just what a woman needs. Other times, it doesn’t feel appropriate. I think it’s OK to follow our instincts on this one. If all your nerve-endings are open to her signals, you will know if she will welcome your touch.

2 Put away your own ‘stuff’

Because it’s not about you. The other day a new doula asked me if your own memories and experiences ever stop rearing their heads. For me, the answer is yes. My own stories are special, yes, but they have become part of a larger body of narratives floating round in my head and heart. All those stories, all those women; their experiences and voices populate my consciousness. It is them that come to mind as I listen. It is them that inspire me to say, ‘I once knew a woman who…’ or ‘Some women find…’ in order to make a suggestion or to show this mother that she is not alone.

Our ‘stuff’ can be dangerous. It can lead us to make assumptions. It can stop us listening carefully as the clouds of memory and emotion so easily obscure the task at hand. It can make us judgemental. It can stop us really hearing this story and prevents creative problem-solving.

So, we find ways to stow our ‘stuff’. There are many ways and many opportunities to explore the hows and whys of debriefing. We find that it is a journey; that each layer of the onion we peel off reveals more to explore. It’s not about locking up our baggage forever, to ferment and turn rotten in it’s forgotten corner; rather it is about learning how to secure it safely, to lovingly pack away those memories while we hold the space for the women we support.

3. Validate Their Feelings

Because how else can she feel safe to share or feel good about her unburdening herself if I don’t show her? I work with so many women who tell me that, on top of the worries and concerns they have, they feel guilty, silly or bothersome to feel that way. So many of us need to be told that it is OK to feel this way. That it is entirely understandable that we feel this way. That many, many others feel similar. In fact it’s  hardly surprising we feel like that!

Sometimes, women need to have the emotion named. The feelings can be tumultuous, shapeless and undefined. A timely suggestion that it sounds like she’s feeling angry, resentful or any number of adjectives or even that it must be hard, dealing with all of this, can help. Defining, naming and labelling are ways that human beings cope, control and eventually conquer chaos – be that physical or emotional.

4. Help her find her own answers

All doulas can relate to the story of the woman who talks. And talks. And talks. And we listen. We nod our heads. We smile, we frown at the appropriate moments. We interject with the right noises at the right points. We might ask a few open questions. After quite some time, she will say something like, ‘I think I might…’ or, ‘I could…’. We say: ‘that sounds like a brilliant idea!’ She gathers herself, looks more settled and at home in her body and says, ‘Thanks for that advice, it really helped!’

We have the answers inside us. Sometimes we might need information, people or answers to specific questions as pieces of the jigsaw puzzle – and a doula can help with that. But at the end of the day, only she knows that right answer.

5  Honour our female story-tellers and our oral herstory

Stories are our lifeblood as human beings; especially for women. The oral narrative has been how women have communicated, shared life’s wisdom and lessons, given and received since the dawn of time. Our sex was illiterate until very recently in history. But with the written word came a silence – we stopped telling stories as part of daily life. Our circles are coming back; red tents, storytelling circles and other female rituals and rites of passage mean that perhaps our ancient stories will not be forgotten. Our narratives, be they personal, domestic or about universal wisdom, female power and mystery are vital. It is how we share our strength and step into our inheritance at each stage of our lives – from maiden to mother to crone.

Stories can be used for good or ill. Too often I read stories written by women who use their own experiences to belittle the choices or feelings of others. Our stories can be used by commercial interests to pit us against each other (“we know breastfeeding can be painful, so if you choose to move on, our formula is here to save you”) or to silence us (“All the other mothers are so grateful – just be happy you have a healthy baby”)

We need to nurture our storytelling. Listen carefully for the morals of the tales and use our yarns to knit us together to create something beautiful and useful.

You will have an opportunity to tell your story in our first zoom call. Remember it is your call how much you choose to share. The DD facilitators, Maddie, Katie, Laura, Aimee and Verina are here to listen if you feel you need a more private chat.